I get the last cupcake.

since this is a private blog, a little update for those who might be wondering...

We lost the baby. I'm having surgery in 7 hours, not looking forward to it at all. The recovery from the last D&C for a miscarriage took weeks, was horrible, awful, what nightmares are made of.

I'm handling the situation fine, considering I just spent nearly a trimester being sick and tired with no reward ;), and grieving appropriately. I am strong. I am ready to do it all over again. I am 100% optimistic about my family growing again. I feel love and support. I feel grateful. My friends and family are angels. I feel hope as a dear friend of mine is bringing a beautiful baby into the world tomorrow, so even though I have the sadness of a loss, there is great joy to be felt and there will still be a sweet little baby to celebrate and make tomorrow a wonderful day.

Anyway, it's been a long week and we really are just ready to move on. God has blessed me with an iron will and I know I have all the strength and support I need to get through the next week.